Have you ever been in condition that when you love something (it doesn't matter something is kind of person or object). Well, i do.

Love bears hatred..

Why?

When you love something you will get at least one of these symptomps:

1. Your appetite increased when you want to eat only just think about your love.
2. Your heart is beating faster and faster than before when you encounter with your love.
3. You start to get insomnia when you can't get your love out of your head only for while.
4. etc.

Backsound: Ingat Kamu, Duo MAIA

Well, it is likely that you fell in love BUT it is not what i want to tell you. The main points are when you experience something that could make you lose your feeling to your love. So you might experience the different conditions from above:

1. Your start to feel sick when you want to eat only just think about your love.
2. Your heart is still beating fastly because you have wished that you would never meet again with your love
3. You start to get headache when you can't get your love out of your head only forever!
4. etc.

Wow, the effects when you starting to lose your feeling about your love could be had the same or contra effects  when you starting to love something but with different condition. It is really a pain in your heart and you just started wondering why this love is killing me softly. You started to blame yourself. Yes. Love bears hatred. You hate yourself. You are questioning yourself. You.... and you.... asking and asking

Why i couldn't be the one. The one who accompany you side by side. The one who can hold the future together....

You are also starting to blame yourself about how weak you are when facing the third person which has a power to separate you from your love. Later, you will blame everyone for injustice you think you had. "i'm nowhere", you said. You starting to find out how to "sleep" in elegance, controversial, or sensational way. It is only just because you bear hatred and that hatred comes from your situation with your love.

I'm not as far as i wrote the last sentences since i don't too depresed. But for sure, i'm quite shocked. I also blame myself and i also blame the third person. The feel had became more worst but i tried to release and let it go.  Just to say to my soul.... Lanjut, gan! (Continue...)

spoiler for my love:

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